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Monday, March 16, 2009

I Didn't Pass Out.

But, I wanted to. It may have been easier. I played the piano yesterday in church. Accompanying a youth choir. You know, when you play all by your lonesome, if you need to hesitate half a beat to check your fingers, you totally can. No one will really notice. BUT NOT WHEN THERE ARE PEOPLE SINGING. The worst part? The very, very worst part? No amount of deep breathing and meditative thinking could stop my peddle leg from shaking uncontrollably. My right leg took on a life of it's own, performing it's own spastic dance. It was all I could do not to hit the underside of the piano with the top of my knee. Around page seven my leg calmed down, but my heart didn't. Part of me says I will NEVER do that again. Another (bigger) part of me says I should do it more often to get over this horrible fear. I'm wondering about the play next- I'm all fine and dandy during practice, until someone comes in to watch. I just want everyone coming to see me, or if you here about my "performance", NONE of us auditioned. We were duped, I tell you! There has been much grumbling on the part of the actresses (that's SO funny! "actresses") and I think there are two reasons we haven't quit: One, we aren't quitters. And two, we are having a lot of fun doing this. It's no party because the actual play night is always looming over us, but I think most of us are enjoying each other's company and we feel like we are all in the same boat. On the sea of uneasiness. In the middle of the storm called "I wish I could sing like Ariel in the Little Mermaid because then play life would be good."


  1. That is too funny - I HATE to accompany groups in special musical numbers and my peddle leg shakes uncontrollably as well!!
    Glad to hear you survived!

  2. I admire your courage to play in front of some many people. My goal used to be to be able to play well enough for Relief Society (probably with just one hand). Well, keep up the good work!

  3. Your reference to the "Little Mermaid" is very appropriate because I tell people all the time I sing just like Scuttle. He is the star in that right? Hah! I agree with you on the reasons we haven't quit, it has been a lot of fun. I think you did great on the piano. After that the "PLAY" will be a piece of cake. I've decided keeping my week crazy busy will keep my mind of the whole thing and I won't have to think about it at all until Friday.

  4. Play rehersal (like that?) is fun, Opening night is just STUPID!!!

  5. Good job! I get the spastic leg thing too. When I was giving a talk in sacrament meeting. I just kept wondering what the bishopric was thinking of me shaking up there.
    I appreciated your comment about the baby stuff on my blog. I am trying to keep things coming in slowly on an "as-needed" basis. I was curious about your mini crib, I think you mentioned it on your blog a long time ago. If we make it back to Bakersfield before the baby's born I'll have to come out to your house to check it out. John has been all worried about how much space we have and I told him we could have 4 kids in a 5th wheel. He agreed we were doing ok.